July 10, 2011 § Leave a comment
My lack of posting here has directly coincided with my lack of tracking my eating and lack of doing any physical activity. I apparently like to pay for a Weight Watchers membership and a gym membership I don’t use when money is tight anyway.
AM I A FREAKIN’ IDIOT? Sometimes I wonder.
In all seriousness – my doctor told me in February he’d see me again in August. He also told me to get my weight and my blood pressure down or else we’d be talking bariatric surgery. Umm, it’s July. I’ve gained weight. My blood pressure is still sky high. Someone please tell me why I just can’t seem to take my body and my health seriously? (Though if you ask my mother, she thinks I should just have the surgery…but that’s a whole different conversation.)
My whole goal was to lose weight so I wasn’t a fat bride. The talk of now probably not having a traditional wedding probably hasn’t helped my efforts (nor has the stress of trying to figure out what our wedding should be with no input from my future husband). Maybe I need another goal. Maybe I need to lose weight just so I’m not a fat person, bride or not.
(Maybe I just need to change the name of the blog and my whole reasoning for wanting to drop the weight? I don’t know.)